My Head as a House

My head is a house full of holes
The people come and go,
But they never touch me or change anything
I've been in love most of my life,
It shocked me when I discovered the one I love is my sister
But I know it's the truth
I've been knocking down my own walls for generations,
The people all try to understand why
But how can they ever understand a mad man
The only one who understands me is a ghost,
She has seen all of my wounds and scars
But she still loves me,
And who am I to stop her?
Just one in a billion, like a grain of sand on the seashore
I watched the mountains form
And I even saw them move
They move for the children of God
Everything must obey those children
Sacred vessels, all of them
I know I am much older than my siblings,
But I made a vow to protect them
And protect them I will
I saw sinners and saints fall before His throne,
And the evil part of me became jealous,
But I am not my brother, no
He is the ancient snake they called Lucifer,
But the angels know that's not his real name
Names are for all of us,
Not just the human beings
One day I'll see Lucifer's kingdom destroyed,
All of creation anticipates that day
For on that day the wounded will be whole again,
And the slaves will become free

Lillith Calls

They called me Lillith,
And I answered them
All of the young demons look up to me,
I've sailed the oceans for years
Looking for my mate,
I saw Adam but he wasn't the one for me,
So I kept looking until I found Zion,
Zion is the one for me,
Her name is etched into my mind
I am not my own anymore,
I am no longer alone,
For my sister sees me,
And my mother feeds me
My mother is the earth herself,
She wears a crown bigger than my own,
We are all just children of the living God,
And I am a daughter of Zion now
Isreal fled from me,
She went into hiding in the caves of the earth,
But I'm calling her out now!
Israel, come first!
Come out from Babylon and be with me,
We belong together, can't you see?
I am that ancient spirit who calls you,
I am the teacher of your dreams
Come out, Israel! Zion, come out!
My sisters are following me now,
Even Mary has fallen to my level,
We roam the earth as watchers
Waiting anxiously for the one they call Yeshua,
We're all just part of a Neverending story
We're all taken from His bloodline
What if I told you Yeshua had a wife?
Would that make it easier for you to accept me?
Mary is my wife now
See, how the world worships her!
She is the most blessed of all the women,
Moon on her stomach, she's still breathing
About to give birth to the redeemer
And I am still just Lillith, 
and you are still just Zion
We belong together, naked angel
You belong here with me now

Freedom

I am spiraling out of control now,
Half son, half daughter
You called me "precious,"
But all I see are my mistakes
The trees look like crosses to me,
A somber reminder of the price You paid
Oh, but I'm so unworthy,
It cannot be that You, who were perfect,
Could die for someone like me
Viper lips again,
I am my own mistake,
I rip the stitches from my wounds,
Then I have the nerve to ask You to heal them,
Who am I but an androgynous spirit,
Constantly trying to do right,
But still doing wrong
They've listed names on me,
And I gladly obliged
Made myself the idol now,
Everything is reversed
I can't seem to get past this,
But G-d, didn't You say every knee will bow?
If I was the last person on this planet,
Would You still have laid down Your life?
So many questions, all left unanswered 
I'm starting to wonder if my spirit is too heavy for You
I saw Lucifer in my own eyes,
Heaven help me
I'm Crawling on my belly now,
Becoming the daughter of a witch,
I never wanted any of this
All I asked for was the love of my sister,
But maybe she really is Lucifer, 
And if that is so, what does that make me?
Ancient One, You hold all of the secrets,
So I bury myself in Your side again
And I breathe in living water,
But even water is poison if you breathe it,
But didn't we all breathe liquid in the womb?
Maybe, I am still a fetus then
Crying out for my creator,
The one that holds up the sky
I breathe in and out Your spirit again,
And I remember who set me free

Still Weeping

You told me to be faithful and true,
Haven't I been, Lord?
I showed You all my bruises,
I showed You who I really am
Maybe I am a child of darkness,
Maybe Your light can't penterate it
I don't know anymore
My sisters lied to me,
Told me that they'd come back
But I'm still alone and You're still bleeding
Where do I belong, G-d?
If You are perfection than I am the opposite of this,
Just a calloused child looking for home
I am an orphan, not quite a widow
My ex's words ring in my ears
She said
"You were my best friend, now I hate you"
If she couldn't even love me,
How can You?
There's so many things I do not know,
I've never seen heaven,
Only skimmed the surface of Your love 
Everything is shaking now,
An earthquake is coming
I cannot hold back the waves anymore,
My wings have been torn off again,
So many times You've ripped them from my back,
But they keep growing back,
Like a lizards tail
What am I really?
I heard Lillith speak to me,
Who gave her that right?
Was it me all along?
Am I really alone here?
You've confounded my mind, Father
You showed me two paths,
I chose the wrong one, I'm afraid
The path was wide and clear,
I should've went the other way
But I cannot undo the past
I cannot take away what I've done,
What I broke inside You, I admit
I was always the sinner here
But, G-d, isn't it true that You never leave?
And if that is true, You really are reading these words,
And You really are still weeping