To Lindsey

I saw your reflection in the back of my eyes,
It lead me to search everywhere for you
But no matter where I searched, you were never there
And now the piles of my own mind collapse me
You were My best friend, the sacred one
Different than all of your sisters
I lost you now and it's my own fault
I've been singing all the sad songs to get you back,
But I'm starting to believe you could never hear me
And if that is true, who the fuck am I?
Just a shattered ex who splintered your perception of reality
I am so sorry,
There are no words to describe it to you
I hope one day you see through my eyes
And I pray it doesn't hurt you anymore